Saturday, April 3, 2010


This is Day 1 of my weight loss Diary my start weight is 114.8kg and I'm hoping to lose 47kg over my journey to bring my goal weight down to 68kg. This photo was only taken 2 weeks ago it is a side angle so it really doesn't show my size properly I will get a full front photo soon.
I started my weight loss journey in February at 120.5kg and since then have lost 5.7kg by just losing that amount I can already feel the difference but know I have a long way to go. I have not come to terms with the fact that I have lost some weight yet, my work pants are falling down but I will not buy new ones I don't even know why just can't bring myself to do it.
I still feel tired alot and can not seem to find the time to exercise but I know the time is there somewhere I just have to start to motivate myself more. My eating was on track but over the past 2 weeks it has all gone off track so I need to get this back on track so I can continue my weight loss and getting my life onto a healthy track.
I attend a weight loss club once a week it is just where a group of people get together and get weighed talk about there week and give and receive some great advice, the people in this club are losing weight all different ways ( Eg weight watchers, shakes, just healthy eating diets ect) and everyone is welcome I find this really helpful as you can find out alot of information on alot of different things and get to see what is or isn't working for people.
I always thought I was the fat kid growing up but looking back on it I was never the fat kid I really was quite skinny and had legs that went forever (I don't know where they have gone lol) so I think this mindset has stayed with me as I have grown and no matter what my size have always seen myself as fat. I was 58kg before having my daughter which is by no means fat but I always thought I was (I would give anything to be that weight these days it's funny how the mind works) I did alot of sport as a kid and even ran in the state finals at QE2 stadium in Brisbane, I played on an undefeated netball team and was on a softball team that won the finals 5 years in a row but then boys kicked in and sport wasn't cool so just quit it all at once and have now become very inactive this is one part of my life I regret. I don't regret much in my life because I have had fun and lived life to the fullest to get to this point.
In my life now I have sort of just started concentrating on my work I work as a photographer, my fundraising for the leukaemia foundation and keeping my 14 year old daughter out of trouble and trying to get her not to throw her life away that I have sort of forgotten about myself I never go out and never visit friends anymore I just go to work and home my weekends revolve around my daughters social life and if I do get invited out I don't go because I'm never sure what my daughter is doing or weather she will get into trouble. I'm single and see myself being single for a long time to come as I don't get out and mix with people apart from at work so there is no chance of meeting someone even though I would love to.
Well anyway that is a bit about myself I hope you enjoyed the read and feel free to leave comments.